IMY, wormie

ever since then
there is just this one piece of me missing
I have lost it together with my soul and smile
nth seems to be able to fit in the empty hole

memories are killing me every night
10 years..... of memories
the happiness
the sorrows
the bicker
the laughters
the lame jokes
the htht sessions
the favourite food
the everything...

I hope one day you will tell me what is going than just leave me hanging alone
Because whatever the reason is, we are going to face it together

"Where'd you go, I miss you so..."

i really miss u, wormie:(

What are words

Anywhere you are, I am near
 Anywhere you go, I'll be there
 Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see

 

 Where every single promise I'll keep
 Cause what kind of guy would I be
 If I was to leave when you need me most

 

 What are words
 If you really don't mean them
 When you say them

 

 What are words
 If they're only for good times
 Then they're done

 

 When it's love
 Yeah, you say them out loud
 Those words, They never go away
 They live on, even when we're gone

 

 And I know an angel was sent just for me
 And I know I'm meant to be where I am
 And I'm gonna be

 

 Standing right beside her tonight
 And I'm gonna be by your side
 I would never leave when she needs me most

 

 What are words
 If you really don't mean them
 When you say them

 

 What are words
 If they're only for good times
 Then they're done

 

 When it's love
 Yeah, you say them out loud
 Those words, They never go away
 They live on, even when we're gone

 

 Anywhere you are, I am near
 Anywhere you go, I'll be there
 And I'm gonna be here forever more

 

 Every single promise I'll keep
 Cause what kind of guy would I be
 If I was to leave when you need me most

 

 I'm forever keeping my angel close

 

Credit: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/chrismedina/whatarewords.html

BUSY. BUSY. BUSY. BUSY. BUSY.

has been rushing assignments recently

Baby has been accompanying me all along

shall blog some throwbacks

**warning**

photo spam!

 

23/08/14, Saturday

met my JGT clique for dinner after I submitted my project for the week

YOSHIMARU @ Holland

the food is awesome!

went to sing k after a round of beer

long and crazy night

 

27/08/14, Wednesday

met up with Baby's friends for dinner to collect wedding invitation card

funny bunch of people:)

 

28/08/14, Thursday

Happy belated birthday to our dear Jovi

cakes for the day:)

 

29/08/14, Friday

Stay over at Baby's place

Meet Rey and Feon for bah kut teh at Marsiling

went shengshiong for groceries

home.

 

05/09/14, Friday

took leave to rush my assignments for the week

Baby accompany me again

 

10/09/14, Wednesday

met Herrine and Ben tgt with their partner for dinner

Ramen Champion at Bugis+

 

11/09/14, Thursday

Step up movie with Baby at JEM

awesome!

 

12/09/14, Friday

met the zoo clique to celebrate Nessya birthday

had dinner and drinks at Holland

crazy bunch of girls.

5years and still counting..

 

13/09/14, Saturday

Parents went overseas and Baby came over to stayover

Home cooked dinner with Korean wine

 

14/09/14, Sunday

met up with JGT clique for dimsum

126 @ Geylang

 

after which we headed to mindcafe for games

 

wefie of the day:)

 

17/09/14, Wednesday

met JGT for dinner at Craft Café, Holland

their standard kinda dropped I guess?

 

19/09/14, Friday

Attending Edwin and Kathy's wedding dinner

my boy and me

Baby went for gate crashing and look at his face!

HAHAHA

Watch it here 

met JGT for second round after dinner

drink.drank.drunk.

is a crazy night

thank god for the guys who take care of us

 

20/09/14, Saturday

hangover and slept the whole day

dinner and met Herrine for Maze Runner movie

met JGT for supper at Mongkok, geylang

 

21/09/14, Sunday
Lunch at Ajisen, Woodlands

with Baby and Jesline

went to meet Melissa for manicure

first time tying turquoise

kinda suit my skin tone eh?

 

 Shall be back for more updates...

byeeeeee~ 

We The Kings - Sad Song (Lyric Video) ft. Elena Coats

We The Kings - Sad Song (Lyric Video) ft. Elena Coats

 

You and I,
We're like fireworks and symphonies exploding in the sky.
With you, I'm alive
Like all the missing pieces of my heart, they finally collide.

So stop time right here in the moonlight,
Cause I don't ever wanna close my eyes.

Without you, I feel broke.
Like I'm half of a whole.
Without you, I've got no hand to hold.
Without you, I feel torn.
Like a sail in a storm.
Without you, I'm just a sad song.
I'm just a sad song.

With you I fall.
It's like I'm leaving all my past in silhouettes up on the wall.
With you I'm a beautiful mess.
It's like we're standing hand in hand with all our fears up on the edge.

So stop time right here in the moonlight,
Cause I don't ever wanna close my eyes.

Without you, I feel broke.
Like I'm half of a whole.
Without you, I've got no hand to hold.
Without you, I feel torn.
Like a sail in a storm.
Without you, I'm just a sad song.

You're the perfect melody,
The only harmony
I wanna hear.
You're my favorite part of me,
With you standing next to me,
I've got nothing to fear.

Without you, I feel broke.
Like I'm half of a whole.
Without you, I've got no hand to hold.
Without you, I feel torn.
Like a sail in a storm.
Without you, I'm just a sad song.

Without you, I feel broke.
Like I'm half of a whole.
Without you, I've got no hand to hold.
Without you, I feel torn.
Like a sail in a storm.
Without you, I'm just a sad song.
I'm just a sad song.

Many things happened recently.
Just when I needed my bestie to be around and lend me his listening ear,
he chose to hide away from me

All along I am living in denial
till today when the truth hit me hard right at my face
"YES. HE IS BACK"

maybe he has his difficulties?
maybe...

I am hurt yet I am still finding excuses to cover for him...
in the end I still chose to side him
because he mean a lot to me
someone whom I can confront and whine things to

10 years of friendship
it makes me wonder if I am being one sided all along to this friendship.

nevertheless,
IMY.

What Faith Can Do

my current favourite song *on repeat mode*

 

"What Faith Can Do"

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes
And make a new beginning

 

Anyone can feel the ache
You think it's more than you can take
But you're stronger
Stronger than you know

 

Don't you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

 

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

 

It doesn't matter what you've heard
Impossible is not a word
It's just a reason
For someone not to try

 

Everybody's scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It'll be alright

Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

 

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

 

Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
(That's what faith can do)
When the world says you can't
It'll tell you that you can

 

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do
That's what faith can do

 

Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise

 

Credit to here.

Eternal Flame

Close your eyes, give me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating
Do you understand
Do you feel the same
Am I only dreaming
Is this burning an eternal flame

I believe it's meant to be, darling
I watch you when you are sleeping
You belong with me
Do you feel the same
Am I only dreaming
Or is this burning an eternal flame

Say my name sun shines through the rain
A whole life so lonely
And come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling

Credit to here.

Mother's Day Celebration

Quick updates.

Have been busy with studying recently.

really HATE exams:(

Hmmmm...

Just wondering if anyone of you miss my blogging?

HAHA.

anyway gonna spam some photos for today.

040514, Sunday

Brought my family out for dinner

@ Huay Kwang Thai Kitchen for mookata

Address: 9 Townshend Road S207607 (Jalan Besar)

Buffet Price: $25.90 on weekdays, additional $3 on weekends.

Ala Cart Price: Range from $6 to $60

Here are some photos:

Not too bad but personally I still prefer the New Udon Thai Food Mookata @ Golden Mile

They have got the best marinated meat and chilli!!! *drool*

In case you are also a mookata fan like me,
you may want to visit this blog for more recommendation.


070514, Wednesday

Happy 15th Monthsary

100514, Saturday

Brought Baby's mum for brunch

@ Paradise Dynasty - Causeway Point

Get ready your tissue for your drools..

8 Treasure Xiao Long Bao

Dumpling noodles with superior soup base

Cold tofu with century egg

Shanghai fried rice

Drunkard chicken

 

one of my favourite Chinese cuisine restaurant.

love the food there.

110514, Sunday

Mini gathering at my house with relatives for Mother's Day

My cute ah ma holding her cake happily.

Had an awesome feast for dinner that night.

But no photos taken, because all the hungry ghosts snatch the food even before I can snap some photos. LOL.

alright that's all for today.

shall update again after my paper!

miss me meanwhile, peeps.

byebye~

Collin Raye - Love, me

I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I love your Grandma so"

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said,

"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray

I know I've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her, his eyes fill up with tears

"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me."



credit: http://www.lyrics007.com/Collin%20Raye%20Lyrics/Love%20Me%20Lyrics.html

Growing up

Life is full of ups and downs.
But recently, it seems like everything has been down down down down and down.
Baby also mentioned that our honeymoon period seems to be over already.
Seriously? To me I feel I haven't even experienced any honey yet:(

Reading the forums, fb posts, instagram, twitter, I haven't even experience those things other boyfriends did to their girl.
Yea call me petty, but I still cant get over the fact our anniversary and vday were the worst nightmare that no girls will ever wanted.

Oh well, so I told myself not to expect anything anymore.

I chose this bf and knowing that he is a wood block (blur and naïve), unromantic unlike other guys mention in forum (I think they are fake characters imagine by others), a lost boy with wrong guidance.
I am trying my best to pull him back on track with proper guidance that my dad had taught me since young.
As for how to be a boyfriend, I guess it all comes from the heart.
If he doesn't feel like doing something, I don't see why I must force him to do to make me feel love, cause it will not be from his heart:)

There are a lot of temptations outside. I don't deny I get tempted easily, especially with my relationship with baby is not what every girl wants. But still deep down I know, baby really treats me very well. Just that, he haven't mature.

Alright enough of ranting.
I still wanna reward and acknowledge him as my boyfriend.

2014 Improvement Award goes to Mr Chen Dongyuan.*applauses*
After the last post, he made quite a fair bit of improvement and even opened an instagram account:)

However, there is still a long way to go.
Mentality, aim in life, self enrichment, plans in future.
I need a strong man, a powerful leader, with ambition, firm stand and beliefs,

Is going to be tough but we need to overcome it. Guess it's just part of growing up.
We cant live under our parents' protection anymore.
We have to be responsible for our own words, actions, and decisions.
Hope things gonna be fine soon.

Still loving you, like I always do.
*hugs*

I wish...

I just wish my bf will show how much I mean to him and nvr be lazy to do so. Will really appreciate if he does. All along this one year, he nvr once initiate to post my photo anywhere in the social app. Am I too unpresentable or he doesn't feel proud to have me or worst I am not the only one? 

I always remind him how actions speaker louder than words. But not sure if he is listening. 

7 feb was our first anniversary. But seems like it was nth special to him. Just came over had dinner with my family because is my dad birthday too. I know I shouldn't have expect any thing more. But kinda disappointed still, he didn't prepare anything for me:( 

What can I say? I still love him.

Next week is valentine's day. So what? Everyone is bragging abt the gift they received and bought. Me? Smile, envy and be happy for them. 

Oh well... Life goes on. 

再坚强的女人，都会期望有一天被她爱的男人，宠爱着，保护着，依靠着。

Happy Birthday to BABY:)

Happy Birthday, Baby!

28.09.13.

There is more to come.

Counting down 2 days:) 

Thanks for everything.

Love you 😘

Happy Birthday Nessya!

Happy Birthday Nessya!

9 years of friendship and still counting.
Love you, babi girl:)

Endurance

BROKE.
Nvr been so broke before.
I am sure we will walk through this!
meanwhile, I will just take this opportunity to go on diet:)
whooooooooooooo~^^

had been having tauhway for lunch this few weeks.
is my skin gonna be like beancurd so soft and smooth?
:DD

hmmm I am craving for my salad.
shall do it on alternate days starting tmr!
should be able to save quite abit.
*fighting*

Oh God, I pray for your strength to keep me strong and I believe you will help me to get over this soon. I have Faith in you:)

I just hate the word 'LAZY'. It annoys me so much. No point using mouth and say so much and end off by saying 'I am lazy'. Must well dont say. Cause you don't mean it at all.

Disappointment

Seriously, nvr in my life I feel so dumb.

Was still worrying about his health since Friday, texting him and praying that he will have a speedy recovery. I still thought of going hospital to visit him and pass him a handmade bday card. 

In the end, I'm just a spare tyre that he used. Now that he had a gf, he don't need me this spare tyre and decide to just kick me off without a word. Seriously can't u just be truthful in your actions? You misuse my trust, feelings and sympathy. I hate it. Blame on my stupidity. Since you chose to block and bluff me, then fine. All the best for you. Thanks for letting me know how ass someone can be.

Update: I dreamt of seeing his name and pic on a newspaper. Hope my instinct is wrong. God bless him. Maybe he has his difficulties. I am not longer angry just wish him all the best.

Bestie helps me to return all his stuff. I still dont unds why in a relationship cant be friend with opposite gender. Why is there a need to hide? Probably ppl need to see things in a more simple view. You dont owe me any explanation. Is obvious, lover over friend, simple.

Misunderstanding..

Losing a friend through misunderstanding is one of the way to kill me. If being in a relationship caused me to lose all my friends, I will choose to give it up.  

Heartache

Why are u doing this to me?
Why did u chose me in the first place?
Why are u so protective when ppl tried to snatch me away?
Why did u do so much and now chasing me away?

Why?

I bet u have forgotten whatever that u have said.
but i have all the ss in my phone.
U said that u want to have a simple life with me.
U said that u love cooking with me
U said that u want us to be the sweetest couple ever
U said that u miss me in your arms
U said so much but now...

Why?

It really hurts me alot.

7/3/2013, Thursday
HE REMEMBERS:D
impromtu dinner with my boy
he surprised me with lovely red roses

had japanese food for dinner

ahBLURR and me

Happy 1st Monthsary.

9/3/2012, Saturday
met boy and headed to town
both of us change our hairstyle
before

after

met parents for dinner after that

Happy Anniversary to them.

10/3/2013, Sunday
went morning trekking wih parents in the morning
trek @ hort park
love the beautiful flowers

had awesome breakfast before heading home

went over to boy hse in the afternoon
wanted to cook something nice
but my skill not there:(

seafood dinner

11/3/2013, Monday
meet boy after work
pass me some work stuff

had dinner and movie
we got the wrong tickets
suppose to watch jack and the slayer
in the end we had oz the great and powerful
god's will~
is a great movie too.
funny, magicial and romance.

12-15/3/2013, Tue-Fri
busy week for me
planning and checking
mailer,poster.gifts.
finally get all done.
waitng for all the items to arrive

16/3/2013, Saturday
plan to spent the afternoon with my boy
before meeting gf for shopping and dinner
but... boy is lazy
went over to find him awhile
then dinner at jp with SZ and her bf
i lost my phone tat day on a cab
THANK GOD
a kind passenger pick it up
boy acc me over to st. george lane to get back from the uncle

17/3/2013, Sunday
went trekking with parents again
we went Mount Faber
didnt had breakfast and almost fainted
happily rush home and waiting for boy to wake up
he say wanna go dog adoption at pasir ris
in the end.... LAZY.
mood was totally ruined
why guys are so lazy.
i really hate last min cancelation.
i was happily telling my sis that i can see so many cute dogs,
then... dream come true NOT.
LL
went over to meet him still
was disappointed and a little pissed
but still... i gave in.
forgive and forget:)
suppose to play L4D2
but was having terrible headache
went to get his work shoes and headed home to rest

18/3/2013, Monday
work as usual.
clear work and make sure production is on track
go home

19/3/2013, Tuesday
met sz and boy after work
he pass me work stuff again
get pressie for our beloved dog
home.

recently having menses and mood swing is terrible
my poor boy have to suffer tgt with me
im sorry
i just cant control
that's why i wanted my happy food all the while
but we didnt have a chance at all...

i still love u, baby boy ♥

hello.
laoniang is here to blog again:)
things are pretty well.
im happy with my current life

CNY week. busy going ard bai nian
16/2/2013, Saturday
went to Elaine hse, Edmund hse last but not least my own hse to bai nian
sweety Nessya bake us chocolate banana cakes

*yummy*
had a wonderful steamboat dinner with zoo clique.

17/2/2013, Sunday
went over to ahBLURR hse
was feeling so uncomfortable with my menses
&&&see what he got for me!

sweet boy indeed ♥
chill and slack our sunday away
watch movies.
cook dinner tgt:)

brought our dear princess out for a stroll in park.

she is so adorable!
home.

18-19/2/2013, Mon&Tue
on mc for work
lost my voice again.
cough, flu, sore throat.

20/2/2013, Wednesday
went work as usual.
meet ahBLURR up for work purpose
&&&see what he got for me!

how can i not feel love with him around?
*happy and blessed*

21/2/2013, Thursday
met ahBLURR after work
acc him to PSB to pay his school fees
had steamboat for dinner on a rainy day

*shiok*
i always have the habit to order alot
but only eat a little
the rest all throw to him to finish up
*辛苦你了*
last but not least we had our sinful dessert:p

22/2/2013, Friday
all alone day.
went home after work.
ahBLURR went to chill with his colleagues
turn in early that night.

23/2/2013, Saturday
woke up and shock to see my phone
ahBLURR spam 20+ msg
at least he didnt forget me when he was out to have fun:)
went over to his hse
make him oreo cheese cake
*i forgot to snap a pic*
chillax again
movie and cook dinner
POTATOES FEAST.

home.

24/2/2013, Sunday
after so long.
finally get to meet D
had lunch and do a little shopping.
it's nice seeing you:)

met ahBLURR in the evening
he acc me to H&M to change clothes
dinner at kenny roger

*my first visit*
home sweet home

25-27/2/2013, Mon-Wed
first week for his reservice
work as usual
suddenly alot of work
aliasing with vendors
meetings

28/2/2013, Thursday
had lunch with Boss

after work went to meet ahBLURR
had dinner at crystal jade ra man
as usual had our dessert to end of the day

but i created some problem
and ahBLURR was pissed
it's so cute
thanks for protecting me
it shows u really care ♥♥♥

1/3/2013, Friday
went dinner with colleagues after work
had mookata at golden mile
*my first visit*
we had lots of fun and laughter
after bbq
we smell like walking BA GUA
went to bali lane to chill

home ard 2+am

2/3/2013, Saturday
woke up and went over ahBLURR hse
he had his bowling session with his camp mates before that
place my things and prepare to head out again
meet up with the zoo clique
SHOPPING TIME.
we enjoyed discount up to 50% off
thanks to shuzhen!
group photo of the day!

stayed over at ahBLURR hse
thanks to our princess

i didnt get enough sleep at all
*panda eyes*

3/3/2013, Sunday
woke up and had mac breakfast

nua till late afternoon
wash up and head out to buy ingredients to cook
herbal chicken soup and white fungus dessert

   


left hse 9+pm
he book in and i went home.

4-6/3/2013, Mon-Wed
second week of his reservice
work as usual for me.
tmr is our month-niversary
i wonder does he even rmbs it?
hmmm..
i miss my boy♥