Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Growing up

Life is full of ups and downs.
But recently, it seems like everything has been down down down down and down.
Baby also mentioned that our honeymoon period seems to be over already.
Seriously? To me I feel I haven't even experienced any honey yet:(

Reading the forums, fb posts, instagram, twitter, I haven't even experience those things other boyfriends did to their girl.
Yea call me petty, but I still cant get over the fact our anniversary and vday were the worst nightmare that no girls will ever wanted.

Oh well, so I told myself not to expect anything anymore.

I chose this bf and knowing that he is a wood block (blur and naïve), unromantic unlike other guys mention in forum (I think they are fake characters imagine by others), a lost boy with wrong guidance.
I am trying my best to pull him back on track with proper guidance that my dad had taught me since young.
As for how to be a boyfriend, I guess it all comes from the heart.
If he doesn't feel like doing something, I don't see why I must force him to do to make me feel love, cause it will not be from his heart:)

There are a lot of temptations outside. I don't deny I get tempted easily, especially with my relationship with baby is not what every girl wants. But still deep down I know, baby really treats me very well. Just that, he haven't mature.

Alright enough of ranting.
I still wanna reward and acknowledge him as my boyfriend.

2014 Improvement Award goes to Mr Chen Dongyuan.*applauses*
After the last post, he made quite a fair bit of improvement and even opened an instagram account:)

However, there is still a long way to go.
Mentality, aim in life, self enrichment, plans in future.
I need a strong man, a powerful leader, with ambition, firm stand and beliefs,

Is going to be tough but we need to overcome it. Guess it's just part of growing up.
We cant live under our parents' protection anymore.
We have to be responsible for our own words, actions, and decisions.
Hope things gonna be fine soon.


Still loving you, like I always do.
*hugs*